relationship blabber

I dont know if its hormones or drugs, but every now and then I get really weirdly sensitive about my relationship and it makes me have doubts. I dont know if its womens actually some kind of womens intuition or if im being neurotic, but sometimes I feel like my love cant have fun with me. It scares me that we dont have enough in common in our relationship sometimes to click. Like I know he has fun with me when were with a group of friends, and there are other people with us, but I feel like we dont know how to be our own couple. Since weve been dating weve lived with other people. We've both always had other friends around to entertain us when the other was doing their thing. With my love its generally that Ive always had a friend that hangs out with me around when he was playing video games.

(I feel like this thing is where I come to ramble about my insecurities)

So flash forward to my concerns. We are planning a trip for our 4 year anniversary, and its just going to be the two of us. Granted we live together, but it feels like its so different to be a going a trip just the two of us. Spending a whole weekend alone without computers and cell phones and video games. Im afraid hes going to find me boring, and not have a good time just spending quality time with me. I dont know what Id do if that happened. Sometimes I feel like I love him too much. More than he can handle, and thats scary. I do have to say this is the first time that he and I are taking a romantic weekend away just the two of us ever in our 4 years together. Every trip weve taken has either been up to a cottage with his parents, or on a trip with his family, or on a trip to stay with my parents out of state. We've been up north with friends, camping with friends, and day tripped with friends.

Am I being unreasonable? I just want to know if other people feel this way? Am I just being a paranoid girl? or should I be concerned. Theres a huge part of me that feels like other couples have to feel this way.

I just think that in our society and world if youre in a  committed relationship you dont get to spend a lot of time together. With school, work, hobbies, and technology we dont get a lot of time together and when you do get personal couple time, its used poorly.

**sigh